I'm a Newly

I did it! I made it through my first support group session. I was put in the Newly group. Technically I do not fit the Newly description. I was grateful when they put me in that group because one of my friends, who had encouraged me to go, told me they would probably want to put me in the Level I group but not too let them. So I was very happy when I did not have to be assertive on my first night and have to demand that I wanted to be a Newly. Most Newlys are newly separated /widowed or separated/widowed for less then a year. You can see that I do not really belong in this group. Emotionally I probably do. I still find it very hard to believe that I am divorced. I don't even FEEL like I am divorced. I feel like I am in this never ending nightmare of pain, humiliation and grief and I just need to wake up! I need to wake up alright! I am divorced, everything that happened did happen and he has moved on so I need to move on. Dr Singh told me that the best revenge is to live a good life. My head knows that but my heart says differently. I am doing all I can to get my heart to believe what my head already knows. As I sat there tonight and looked at the others in my small group, they all just had these glazed over looks on their faces. As for myself I sat and listened to the facilitators talk about what to expect and what was expected of each of us and how this support group could change our lives, and I continually fought back the urge to burst into tears. How am I ever going to make it though the next nine weeks?
The best revenge is to have a good life - the best revenge is to have a good life.