Is It Really ALMOST Over?

Election Day is over but we still have to get through today. I am so ready for the commercials to stop and the signs to come down. Anyone else feel that way?

Most people who know me know I am a registered Democrat but I really think I should be an Independent as I do not entirely agree with either party ever and I have over the years voted both ways. I, like a lot of people I think, would like campaigning to get back to focusing on themselves and get rid of the negative talk. Somehow I am not sure that will ever happen. I would like to hear more about the people that, should they be elected President, they will be appointing because those are the people who will be advising and influencing decisions.

Now that this historical election is for all intents and purposes over, no matter what outcome you were hoping for, I think we need to begin praying for God to give Obama the wisdom to do what is right for our country. I for one am rather excited for the future but have no illusions that things will get better quickly. We will not be able to get out of the mess that has been created over the last 8 years overnight and I think it will take work on our part as citizens as well. I do give hats off to McCain for his concession speech we should all be so gracious.

Here in SD the hottest topic on the ballot was Measure 11 that would have banned all abortions. With exceptions for rape, incest and the life of the mother but that came with stipulations that I could not agree with. I have long been a supporter of Pro Choice. No secret there either. Now in saying that I absolutely am not Pro Abortion and I resent the suggestion of those who say that Pro Choice makes you Pro Abortion. The key word is choice. I have a problem with the government making that choice for me. I also have learned a long time ago that until you have walked in anothers shoes you have no idea what you would do. I do not think it is my business to make moral decisions for others. I remember the days before Roe vs Wade when the back street abortionists were in business and girls were dying. I find it a little ironic that some of the same people who so passionately support this measure would not vote out video lottery which destroys families and in the long run affects us all. I am pretty sure that I could find verses in the Bible that support how dangerous gambling is. In the end the Measure has been defeated once again but not dead.

So as I said it is over, the choice has been made for better for worse it is what it is. I think we should all be grateful that we live in the land of choice where we have a right to disagree with those in power. With all that is wrong with the country I for one would live nowhere else. The United States of America is still the greatest country on earth.

Selfish Me

So isn't one of the purposes of blogging a way to get things off your chest? Life is not always full of good times and happy moments if any of us believe that we are kidding ourselves.

It has been a couple of really tough weeks. Just when I think I am so ready to move on with my life and leave the past behind I am so reminded of how alone I feel. Last weekend it was my Mom's stroke,. I felt so alone when I had no one to go home to for comfort and support. Praise be to the Lord she only had a small stroke and the only thing really affected is her speech which the doctors feel will come back to normal with time and some speech therapy. She sounds like she talks with a mouth full of marbles and it is very hard to understand her on the phone. We are so very lucky that is the worst of it and she was home in time to spend her 87th birthday on Saturday back at home.

This weekend brought more feelings of hopelessness and loneliness. Bob's family came to town on Saturday, spent some time at Chris and Nikki's and went out for dinner. They spent the night at the Ramkota but it was so difficult for me to know they were in town and I was not apart of their time here. It is so frustrating for me that I just cannot get over the whole divorce and just move on. I have worked really hard at it but I guess not hard enough.

I know in so many ways I am blessed how does everyone else do this? What is wrong with me?
Sometimes I so hate my life. I know that Lora will be so disappointed in me but it is what it is.

Today I was told that I was selfish. Maybe I am.